Lies

Lie

No one can see what I see

No one can feel what I feel

No one can hear what I hear

No one knows what I think.

You simply cannot understand

All these emotions keep piling in

I don't address them, their voices getting louder

All of a sudden, tears are rolling down my cheeks

Screaming out of my mouth

I know things I shouldn't

I see things I shouldn't

I understand things I shouldn't

I know when you lie

Lies spilling out like a gutter of mud after a hurricane

Like water after a flood

Like beads rolling out of newly opened box

Like after you said I was your friend

Thankfullness

For Thanksgiving,

Sometimes you need a little gratitude

You have got to have a good attitude

When I notice I have been feeling a little spoiled

I think of the kids in Africa living in soil

I think of suffering, all the pain

And I remember they are the ones still dancing in the rain

I know

I walk inside
First thing I see is you
Screaming fills my ear
Chaos, wild thoughts
I almost feel a hatred fill my stomach
Toward you

Constant arguments
Jealousy, anger
Fills our hearts
How are we friends?
When I can't look at you

We each strive to be unique
My personality is mine
My heart is mine
My soul is mine
Not for you to take
Yet I feel you grasping desperately

Be yourself, not me
How can I be unique?
When you are always copying me

I talk to someone,
You listen
You do what we said
Anger fills me to the brim
I am a bomb ticking away
One day my immense Self Control
Will let go

Should I feel sorry,
After all, you must be lacking something
To always be trying to take it from me

Let me tell you something
I am going to be myself
You will never take my heart
Soul, uniqueness, creativity
Be yourself, or you are
basically
killing
yourself