Empty

Empty

Your words are empty

You are jealous

I don't listen

But what is that in my heart?

Like a twinge of pain when you say that

It can't be true

It replays, replays, replays, replays

Is it because I was mad?

Is it because you were mad?

I can't let myself listen

I have to dump out the dirty water

Don't let it get to me

You snap at me

A quote you  come up with

To me it makes no sense

Then you write it down

Angry at me, pride in your writing

Then you reread it, as if, to reassure yourself

I tell myself, to let it go

But yet the pit stays in my stomach

The needle becomes a hammer, then I’m holding the sky

Is it fair?

No

Do I like it?

You say you know me

You think I don't understand

Maybe I don't... but  you definitely kill me with misunderstanding

This is the last time

I won't do it

But I guess my words, thoughts are...

Empty

Fear

You leave me trembling
Tears streaming down my face
A waterfall down my stained cheeks
My frustration like a hurricane
My cries of anguish like the first gust of tornadoes, whipping around violently
Rain pours down, lightning strikes, thunder claps in rhythm to my heart
Repeating,repeating, repeating I can do this, but I know everyone doesn't believe in meBursting into silver raindrops containing the inner sadness no one understands
The aches are a rubber band pulled against my skin until its snaps, leaving red scars, a symbol of the fear
no matter how tiny it is to you, its the world to me
Don't control me, fear, leave me alone!

Gone

I know you won't come back
your scars are too deep
Those who hurt you, uncontrollable spirits

Times ticking and your not where you belong
You are with the wrong the people, doing the wrong thing
You are ten times above what you think you deserve

My tears fall gently on the cold barren ground
At the thought of you gone
Alone I stand

You are not leaving this home, world
But you are leaving me and my  heart
So my tears continue to fall, making a river

I will hear your laughter, I shall hear no more
I know your silence, your thoughts
You stand shoulders hunched, brooding, focused on something only you can see

I know you left
I know you are gone
But please have mercy, and let my memory live on