Fear

You leave me trembling
Tears streaming down my face
A waterfall down my stained cheeks
My frustration like a hurricane
My cries of anguish like the first gust of tornadoes, whipping around violently
Rain pours down, lightning strikes, thunder claps in rhythm to my heart
Repeating,repeating, repeating I can do this, but I know everyone doesn't believe in meBursting into silver raindrops containing the inner sadness no one understands
The aches are a rubber band pulled against my skin until its snaps, leaving red scars, a symbol of the fear
no matter how tiny it is to you, its the world to me
Don't control me, fear, leave me alone!

Gone

I know you won't come back
your scars are too deep
Those who hurt you, uncontrollable spirits

Times ticking and your not where you belong
You are with the wrong the people, doing the wrong thing
You are ten times above what you think you deserve

My tears fall gently on the cold barren ground
At the thought of you gone
Alone I stand

You are not leaving this home, world
But you are leaving me and my  heart
So my tears continue to fall, making a river

I will hear your laughter, I shall hear no more
I know your silence, your thoughts
You stand shoulders hunched, brooding, focused on something only you can see

I know you left
I know you are gone
But please have mercy, and let my memory live on

Gold Tear

Golden Tear

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There are thousandths, millionths

But one crystal can be found

One for you, the light shining within

Soul, heart, and mind connected like a puddle, alone in the world

Two in a million, two falling together

It may rain diamonds, and amethysts

But there is one golden one for you

Together you may fall, amongst the millions, cascading

Splashing in a puddle that… will never fade

Two in a million, two falling together

Ripples against each other, pushing the others waves

Creating electrical current, chemistry, bubbles foaming

Walking the coal black street

Fading into a river, fading into a sea of maroon and umber

Two in a million, two falling together

But water is too loose, to free

It can't stay together

Whether it be soaked  and kept wet

It will always dry, unwashed and filthy,

Two in a million, two falling together

Containing lies that were hidden deep in the abyss

Jealousy revealed through hail and lightning

Murkiness, when it continues raining deep in the night

No affection in the air... only patient and consistent  fog, quiet until needed

Two in a million, two falling together

Black won't stay black and white won’t stay white

Grey when mushed, forgetting, what it was

Crystal clear when gently swirled

Ground calling, but, don't you want to float?

Two in a million, two falling together

If my heart is the ocean

My soul, a waterfall, always plummeting and rising in fine mist

Why do put a barrier to my current, like a curious beaver?

Please don't change the direction I'm going with my life

Tear has two meanings

The way you tear my heart, my river, always chasing the one

The way you jerk it with your rough mind

But carries my soul my flow with your soft hands

Two in a million, two falling together

I am a raindrop, You are my golden tear

The one I chase relentlessly, through sleet and snow

We share our river, the flow, the current

When we reach our waterfall, we fall together,

Only to rise together

Two in a million, two falling together

There are thousandths, millionths

But one crystal can be found

One for you, the light shining within

Soul, heart, and mind connected like a puddle, alone in the world

Two in a million, two falling together, rising...flying together

Compassion

Am I compassionate?
Is my heart compassionate?
Do I let you take control,or
Are you under Angers spell?

I find it within me, when I look deep in your dark chocolate swirls of eyes
Trembling deep into my soul,
"it's human nature" repeats in my head over and over again
Am I just telling myself that?

Does it make me such a bad person
When I am convinced that you deserve it
But then it echoes, forcing me to listen
I always know,whether I act like it or not, that it's based on my own feelings of hatred


Everyone has their reasons, sad or frustrating
I take my personal hate about everything I do
And take your inner self as my excuse
But I realize it's my fault,my own self-pity

It's your justice,my fault
I know you're mind is pure and innocent
I dream of finding the compassion, for everyone
But always remember, I have found some for you,no matter what they say
                                                                                                               Namaste
                                                                                                                       Molly

Jealousy

Jealous

The world swivels side to side

It is all tinted red, with faces, his face

My devotion, gone by her voice

One, two, inhale,exhale

  His jokes are not for me, the laughter not mine
Compliments once in my possession, now deep in the ocean
resting on the floor, covered in seaweed

One, two, inhale,exhale

He stands there, a light radiating from his face
My Imagination, dream moment,us together
But she stands there,eyes glowing, no darkness in between them

One, two, inhale,exhale

He walks to me,face stony but suddenly lightens

I smile broadly, heart open, soul dancing

But someone else's heart rushes forward,their soul smiling 

One, two, inhale,exhale

It creates self-dought, the destruction of fragile minds
Of course it's not meant for me
Was it ever really meant for me?

One, two, inhale,exhale

I love you, now I hate you for causing me pain

Now  can't talk to my friends for jealousy comes out of my selfish mouth 

You've brought out my worst, the spirit no one likes 

One, two,three, inhale ,exhale, inhale

A Moment, The Moment

A Moment, The Moment

I felt a rising in my soul
A weight that I was finally strong enough to lift
A power shaking my shuddering my heart
The whisper gone in the minutes moment
A breath lost in the grains of time
Newfound confidence giving space for a chest to breathe
The world being lifted off my shoulders
Laughter for the pleasure and music or,
Tears for the pain and lyrics of life
A carefree attitude as the world whisks by
More the precious then the fountain of life
or the tear of the golden maiden
The loving caress and feeling and effort
A moment,the minute, a heart and soul being touched
                                                                                      -  Molly

Honor

             I would like to honor all the soldiers who fought or died in the civil war. It must have taken incredible courage to go  up and fight your neighbors and cousins.To see the dead but still fight for what you believe in so fiercely. To kill, so slaves could be free,or to keep your plantation. The cannons could make your ears bleed and your insides would literally split. You know holding the flag is a death sentence but yet you go up there and hold it proudly for your country. I could not up there and fight knowing my fate.I could never face the hardships they did. So I would like to honor them.Their bravery and courage .Their determination and passion. This would go to all wars but the civil wars really struck me. Their passion shall follow me and I don't think I could ever live up to what they did. So I honor you with all my heart.