Compassion

Am I compassionate?
Is my heart compassionate?
Do I let you take control,or
Are you under Angers spell?

I find it within me, when I look deep in your dark chocolate swirls of eyes
Trembling deep into my soul,
"it's human nature" repeats in my head over and over again
Am I just telling myself that?

Does it make me such a bad person
When I am convinced that you deserve it
But then it echoes, forcing me to listen
I always know,whether I act like it or not, that it's based on my own feelings of hatred


Everyone has their reasons, sad or frustrating
I take my personal hate about everything I do
And take your inner self as my excuse
But I realize it's my fault,my own self-pity

It's your justice,my fault
I know you're mind is pure and innocent
I dream of finding the compassion, for everyone
But always remember, I have found some for you,no matter what they say
                                                                                                               Namaste
                                                                                                                       Molly

Jealousy

Jealous

The world swivels side to side

It is all tinted red, with faces, his face

My devotion, gone by her voice

One, two, inhale,exhale

  His jokes are not for me, the laughter not mine
Compliments once in my possession, now deep in the ocean
resting on the floor, covered in seaweed

One, two, inhale,exhale

He stands there, a light radiating from his face
My Imagination, dream moment,us together
But she stands there,eyes glowing, no darkness in between them

One, two, inhale,exhale

He walks to me,face stony but suddenly lightens

I smile broadly, heart open, soul dancing

But someone else's heart rushes forward,their soul smiling 

One, two, inhale,exhale

It creates self-dought, the destruction of fragile minds
Of course it's not meant for me
Was it ever really meant for me?

One, two, inhale,exhale

I love you, now I hate you for causing me pain

Now  can't talk to my friends for jealousy comes out of my selfish mouth 

You've brought out my worst, the spirit no one likes 

One, two,three, inhale ,exhale, inhale

A Moment, The Moment

A Moment, The Moment

I felt a rising in my soul
A weight that I was finally strong enough to lift
A power shaking my shuddering my heart
The whisper gone in the minutes moment
A breath lost in the grains of time
Newfound confidence giving space for a chest to breathe
The world being lifted off my shoulders
Laughter for the pleasure and music or,
Tears for the pain and lyrics of life
A carefree attitude as the world whisks by
More the precious then the fountain of life
or the tear of the golden maiden
The loving caress and feeling and effort
A moment,the minute, a heart and soul being touched
                                                                                      -  Molly

Honor

             I would like to honor all the soldiers who fought or died in the civil war. It must have taken incredible courage to go  up and fight your neighbors and cousins.To see the dead but still fight for what you believe in so fiercely. To kill, so slaves could be free,or to keep your plantation. The cannons could make your ears bleed and your insides would literally split. You know holding the flag is a death sentence but yet you go up there and hold it proudly for your country. I could not up there and fight knowing my fate.I could never face the hardships they did. So I would like to honor them.Their bravery and courage .Their determination and passion. This would go to all wars but the civil wars really struck me. Their passion shall follow me and I don't think I could ever live up to what they did. So I honor you with all my heart.

Dove

Dear Wings,
                       You carry me off my feet
                        You my soul lift to the sky
                        You let the sun burn my back
                         You let the wind whip me every direction

                          But when the storm comes,
                         I have no control, no liberty
                          I am at the mercy of cruel heartless beings
                          I can't feel anymore,I am a mere shadow on the vast plains

                          But once I'm free, I am boundless
                           The sky not's the limits,neither  galaxy,
                           Neither the harsh and unnecessary words,
                           I fly higher than the stars and the milky way
                       
                          Control me  if you want to
                          Bind me if that's want you need for,
                           Your, self satisfaction and confidence
                            Always remember I will have that free will,

                             That attitude and sass
                            That love and passion and,
                             The will to be free and to feel the,
                             The rain pounding on my back
                                                                                    Namaste
                                                                                                          (molly)

Minds

   He focused on the burning pit growing in his mind. Reading others minds was a dangerous act of focusing completely on the persons true personality.  Usually you have to know some one so well that you think the same things automatically but they cant know, they must never know. He focused on her wavy hair, the sly grin, the fire in her eyes, the innocence of her speech, but the power of her stride, the fear and nervousness carefully concealed. And finally the self confidence mentally and the power she felt in her hands and the burning flames of love around her heart.
    Suddenly he felt anger and longing that didn't belong to him. Longing he could never have. The powerful emotions overwhelmed him .Going into her mind was like riding a roller coaster that suddenly isn't attached  to the railings anymore and you are just flying through space until you crash.Her frustration started build up in his throat.
    He pulled himself out and chose a muscle memory of filling up his water bottle, and thought about her frustration. His muscled arms moving in the back round  pulled him back into real life. He sighed confused, he liked her but she was so complicated.Would he ever discover who those flames in her heart belonged to?

Time

                Dear Time,
                                          The grains  of time whisked away in wind
                                           Earth shrinking or growing
                                           Dinosaurs to ants to humans
                                           Tribes to countries to continents

                                           Change and erosion to endless waiting
                                            Global Warming going slow or fast?
                                           Based on the viewer or beholder
                                           Technology advancement, positive or negative ?

                                          Why must we have a time?
                                           Why have limits and curfews?
                                            You complicate things from,
                                            Going to class to death of old age

                                            You make mountains, hills in neighborhoods
                                             You make Islands legends
                                             You make us rush for fear of time running out
                                            But you won't run out won't you,because time is endless
                                                                                                          Namaste
                                                                                                                     (molly)

Trust

          In gymnastics I get often nervous for new skills because I don't want to fall. All my coaches tell me I can do it "so easily" and won't spot me. One of my coaches told to trust myself more. They wouldn't tell me do do it if I was not ready. I need to trust my coach to be there but I also need to trust myself when the coach isn't there. I get nervous when they spot me less and less because I know one  of these times they just wont spot me.  That's when the pressure to do it comes in. I wrote a letter to pressure. I also wrote a letter to betrayal for when coach tells me they're going to be there but they are not. To me, it's a mild form of betrayal that actually never lets me trust that much ever again even if they are right. "Trust is like paper, once it's crumbled it can't be perfect again"- anonymous.

          The picture in my view  is I shouldn't be afraid of my coach not being there because I shouldn't trust my coach this far  but  I should trust myself.

                                                                                  Mo

Home Sweet Home

Dear Home Sweet Home,

                                          Home is where the heart is
                                          Home is where you make it
                                         Whether it be the open road or
                                          A rustic house, or an a crowded city apartment

                                          I make my memories in you
                                          You move when my
                                          Soul switches passions
                                          When I move, you support and follow

                                          My fear, My frustration, My passion
                                          Is what makes my home
                                          The music blasting, My dancing and singing
                                          It's where I am  unconfined

                                          It's where the pressure  does not get to me
                                         It's when no one is judging
                                          It's when I enjoy the moment
                                          And where I make mistakes to learn from,
                                                                                                      Namaste
                                                                                                               (Molly)

Dear Presssure

                 Dear Mr. Pressure
                                             You make me want to explode
                                               I can't stand it!
                                               Always judging me as if
                                               Wondering if I was worth it

                                              Can't you just leave me alone?
                                               I don't care what you think
                                               I will do it when I'm ready
                                              So why can't you leave it like that?

                                              You might argue it's good for me
                                              That I will try new things  because of you
                                              And you're right, don't get me wrong
                                             But I can't live with pressure forever

                                            People are suprised when I don't care  about
                                           How I look, what I do, what I like
                                          Some accept, others pressure telling me  I have to be that
                                           Peer pressure to be cool, to do something

                                         My heart tells me what to do, not you
                                         I will call you when I need it
                                         The fireworks represent bursting out of the cage
                                         That you made, well not anymore!
                                                                                                                Namaste
                                                                                                                             (Molly)
                                                           

Rain

                                  Dear Rain
                                                     You control the world
                                                     You can create huge everlasting droughts
                                                      You can destroy a whole species
                                                      You cause hunger and death

                                                      You presence can flood,
                                                      Until a continent is an ocean
                                                      Or when you are gone
                                                       Nothing eats or drinks

                                                      Why must you be cruel?
                                                       Do you have no mercy?
                                                       But still you cause children to
                                                       Dance in the wild rain drops

                                                       But your companion, lighting
                                                       Creates the wildest forest fires
                                                       Enemy,or friend,what do you hide?
                                                       Be my friend,be the worlds friend.
                                                                                                                    Namaste
                                                                                                                                   (molly)
                                                     


                                                     

The Road

                          Dear Road
                                         
                                           You guide me evrey where
                                            Sometimes you are lined with pebbles
                                            Or other times you seem to be,
                                            The path to nowhere
                    
                                            Why do you have speed limits?
                                            Are we going to fast?
                                            Should I slow down my life,and
                                            Enjoy every passing moment?

                                            The detours are taking my time
                                             The road blocks are in my way
                                              The traffic is infuriating
                                             Why must you annoy me constantly?

                                              I would like to travel the world
                                              Would you help me see the wonders?
                                               Will you listen to the stop signs?
                                              And if I'm nervous,will you leave?

                                                 Will you continue to carry me?
                                                  What do I do if I'm lost?
                                                   Should I despair or will you bring me there?
                                                  I trust the road,I must trust myself
                                                                                                                 Namaste
                                                                                                                                   (molly)

Ocean

                Dear Mr.Ocean
                                        I can't help but marvel at your beauty
                                    Cresent rashing,spreading sea foam
                                        Crystal clear water with pebbles
                                        Wind whipping the sea into rough edges

                                        But beneath you,you carry the grains of time
                                        You are always there for me
                                         Sometimes you quench the fire,
                                         That takes control

                                         You are my sanctuary
                                         My refuge for hope
                                          You remove my horrible thoughts
                                         You give something that no one else ever had

                                        So I give my thanks
                                        I'll help when you need it
                                        I will give you serenity in which you gave me
                                        i will be the shell that never leaves
                                                                                                    Namaste
                                                                                                                (molly)

Betrayal

The gun means NOTHING,it just represents betrayal.

                 Dear Mr. Betrayal

                                                 Why do you do this to me
                                                 Why must you torment me day and night
                                                  I trusted you so much
                                                  I am left in a desert with no water
                                               
                                                 You were a tree on the beach
                                                 And I was your branch
                                                 You said you would never let me go
                                                 But now I'm floating alone,a piece of driftwood

                                                 Will you scar me forever?
                                                  Will I ever trust or love?
                                                  So much till my hearts pounding
                                                 Ever again because you destroyed me?

                                                  I 'm afraid I can't let you get to me anymore
                                                  I will be more careful
                                                  In who I give my utmost love to
                                                  You are now a leaf in the wind
                                               
                                                 You will never know how much I loved
                                                  You will never know what I saw
                                                  You will never know what you did
                                                   And I will never tell you
                                                                                                         Namaste
                                                                                                                           (molly)

Ruined

 My ruins

My castle on the mountain

         Do you ever feel like you've  built a castle on a mountain so firm that nothing can topple it, but suddenly an earthquake shakes everything until all you have left is ruins. I feel like something is absolutely ruining everything I do, even if it just includes walking. My dreamland is ruined.Why is the universe like that!Sometimes it sucks when you don't have connection with god.
         I don't know how to rebuild my castle though, because someone brought it down. My mother told me to pay no mind to and to ignore people like that but it's too late. How can I not let them inside my head? All I've got is two pieces of wood and no support beams. But It will hold!
               

Dear My Beloved,

 Dear My Cherished,
                                         You are mine
                                          Every thought is on you
                                          Every time your name is said
                                          My heart skips a beat

                                          But it is my secret
                                          I would whisper in your ear
                                          But it would be tragic
                                          Like thorns on a rose

                                          My soul is on fire
                                          My hearts a bonfire
                                          My thoughts are covered in flames
                                          When you hug me

                                          Your smile warms my heart
                                           Your anger is my pain
                                           Be my life
                                           And let me be yours

                                            I don't know
                                            How you got inside my heart
                                            But I do know
                                            I never want you to leave
                                                                                             Namaste
                                                                                                              (molly)

             

Mountain fire, Maui

 My family was visiting Lahaina again and I witnessed for the first time the incredible destruction from the Lahaina fire.

The mountain in flames. 

 I wanted to tell the mountain I am very sorry that it went up in flames.I am extremely sorry to all the rogue deer ,pigs and other wildlife have been burned or be starving with no water. When we were driving ,I noticed a baby deer pressing his/her face on the wire on the fencing.I felt immediately guilty of a crime like murder like it was my fault the deer was there and dying.

   But is a new start for new plants and new wildlife. It is a new beginning  for everything and it is part of nature. I hope all the animals will have a new start.

Close up of ashes on mountain.

Fire

   Dear Fire,
                        You consume my soul
                         You power my very motivation
                         But you destroy everything
                         All the love, all the hate

                         You create barren landscape
                          Taking than destroying
                          Leaving a trail of smoke and ashes
                          Creating a whole new landscape

                          Innocent things are killed by,
                          Your unmasked rage?
                           Is it for pleasure?
                          Even with water, are you truly gone?
           
                          Are you a devil?
                          Or an angel with a mask?
                           I need to trust you
                           For you are my very life
                                                                   Namaste
                                                                                  (molly)

A Letter To Mr. Cloud

 Dear Mr. Cloud
                         Many times you cover my sky
                          But sometimes you brighten my horizon
                         You inspire shapes and answers
                          Occasionally you cover what I would like to see

                         You are the calm before the storm
                          Would I like to see the tempest?
                          You are like a child throwing a fit
                           Is that who you are?
                         
                          Why don't you tell me all your secrets?
                          Is there something you hide?
                          Why do cover my sun , my stars, my moon?
                          How long will I wait before the truth is shown?
                                                                                                 Namaste
                                                                                                                  (molly)
                 
                       

Introduction

 I have been inspired by one of my Mother's blog called A Letter to... to start my own very new blog. Here I might write letters to ladybugs , grass or the ocean or I might write about  a major event like a gymnastic competitions  or just the 4th of July fireworks. If you don't know me ,I love love love gymnastics but I get so incredibly nervous about new tricks.I have a vast amount of stuffed animals and horses ,wolves and foxes are my favorite. I am a vegetarian that loves to run or workout. Thank you for reading.

This is one of my all time favorite pictures.